There’s been a sudden cold snap here in Nashville, and I find myself clutching a cup of tea while the chill presses against the window and the leaves beyond begin to turn before my eyes and it makes me think about October.
I have always loved October.
It is a month of verges. Leaves on the verge of changing. Cold on the verge of snapping. Magic on the verge of spilling over.
I love the smell of drying leaves and things retreating and the way the palette changes.
I love the way the night begins to reach back and steal pieces of the day.
I love the way that all these things tug at my bones, and remind, and promise.
October is a month of verges, and it always leaves me feeling on the verge of something, too.
It would be natural to translate that sensation into restlessness, but instead, the feeling of something being just around the corner, it puts me in the mood for searching. I feel like a child in the woods, looking for fairy doors and shades of magic. I spend the month with this pull, this tug, trailing me behind me, darting out of sight when I turn, but filling the space the way things do, even more when they try to hide than when they stand in sight.
October puts me in a searching mood, a ready-to-discover mood.
October is a month of cusps and verges and cold edges.
It feels like a month of endings, the way the world seems to retreat into itself. But as a writer and a dreamer and a whimsy-seeker, October feels more to me like a month of beginnings. Of discovery. Of magic.
I’ve said on many occasions that I like to think there’s magic in the world, and we’re just not looking hard enough, not using the right eyes. If that’s true, October is the month when magic teases us for it, plays at the edges of our vision, wanting to be seen.
So when the cold creeps through your corner of the world, and the leaves being to turn, and those other little signs of the verge sneak in, make yourself a cup of something hot, and put on shoes, and wander out into the woods, or world, and look with the edges of your eyes, and maybe you’ll see it.