I announced a few days ago that, in just over a month, I’ll be leaving New York, and I wanted to take a few minutes and explain why.
Many of you have been with me since my NYC adventure began, watched the highs and lows of it–if you read THIS POST, you know that the transition hasn’t been an easy one–and it’s funny but I feel the need to explain.
Maybe because I have always championed doing the thing that tests you, and takes you out of your comfort zone, and leaving seems like retreat (a generous word), and quitting (a word less kind).
The thing is, New York is a magical place.
But it’s also, for me, a very, very distracting one. I have lived here for 8 months, and I’ve never established any form of routine, because there’s so much to do here–to see, eat, drink, explore–that I couldn’t imagine wasting the experience by repeating myself.
Which would be fine, if my job title were Professional Explorer.
At the moment, though, my job title is Author.
And in order to keep that job title, I have to write and edit books.
Which is hard to do while frolicking.
Today alone there is a Japanese block fair, a Breaking Bad viewing party, a Vertigo viewing, live music at the Way Station, and goodness knows what else. Those are just the events that appealed to me at a glance. The problem is, some days all I need is a glance to persuade me to abandon my work, and with multiple books due by end of year, I have to find a way to temper my Aspiring Professional Explorer self with my M-F-ing Adult self. Or whichever self meets her deadlines.
I have been struggling with NYC at the same time I’ve been struggling with my writing (see every March post). They have been individual struggles, or so I thought, but the more I examine my work habits over the last year, the more I realize how intertwined they are. Every time I lost a story thread, or felt daunted by work, I walked away. I went to a movie, or a show, or spent the day wandering the city.
NYC has been to me an escape at a time in my life when I should not be running.
That is perhaps the best way I can explain. It has been one of the hardest decisions of my life thus far, because there is so much to love about this place, and because I’ve made some INCREDIBLE friends here, and the thought of parting from them is gutting.
It is not with a light heart that I retreat to tend my wounded work ethic.
But it has to be done.
And now, on a much happier note, the winners of THE ARCHIVED SIX MONTH SIX ARC giveaway, in order:
1. Alicia Marie Ezell
2. Lisa Harwood
3. Joy Davis
4. Sophia Chang
5. Rachel at Arms
6. Megan at Book Worm in Love Blog
Lovelies, I will be emailing you shortly so you can select your prize :)
And now, I believe I have a book to write.